Toot…

My brother mentioned before that I’m too picky. I concur. We can only live our lives once, and shouldn’t we think it through before making any big decisions?

I have to say, buying a pair of shoes is quite a big commitment to make. Think about it, a pair of shoes if chose rightly, can last for a year or two. That is longer than some people’s relationships. Obviously we need to think it through before getting involved in a relationship, and shouldn’t this apply when it comes shoes?

Of course, you can point out that relationships can last longer, and having to analyse the situation carefully reflects that possible years of commitment involved. Then again, there’s this friend of mine who said people should at least get into a relationship before they turn 20. And this same friend of mine mentioned that having couple of ex-boyfriends should be something a girl can be proud of. What say you?

I say, do it right, and do it right the first time. Of course, we learn something when we go through all the hitting a dead end, breaking, pain, trying again, face on the floor, pain…… you get what I mean. Come to think about it, did my friend’s statements imply that the possible years of commitment involve when she’s looking is just a couple of years? Haha, maybe she’ll kick me if she reads this, but she’s probably not a reader. Seriously, who reads this?

One of the most awful feeling one can experience is when one have made a decision and the outcome is still uncertain. Using a bad analogy, imagine yourself making a call to a service centre, and you’ve been put on hold for a long time. Do you keep waiting, or do you hang up? My cousin said that maybe one can surf the net while being on hold? Makes a lot of logical sense, but only if it’s so easy, only if.

Then there’s the really “shouldn’t have, then wouldn’t have” which you desperately try to convince yourself that it’s good that it happened so that you wouldn’t make the same mistake. But there’s always this little voice whispering in you that it’d be better if it didn’t happened at all, or it happened the way you wanted.

Would be nice if there are Save and Load options in our lives. Even better if there are Quick Save and Quick Load buttons. Or maybe, able to read other people’s mind? See into the future? Or at least, have the ability to accurately predict the most probable outcome based on the situations at hand and our own actions?

Funny thing is, we only live our lives once. We live in the present, our actions determine the future, and experience can only be gained from the past.

I guess we will always be haunted by the question of “should I?”